Things aren’t good at all

I can’t work out if I’m in the worst slump of my life or if it’s just that I’m older & much more aware of how I’m feeling & how badly it’s effecting me?

It’s been over 2 months of feeling this way & unfortunately I’m getting worse not better. Iv gotten to the stage where I’m not even leaving the house alone. Going to the shop around the corner makes me sick to even think about. I stay inside the four walls of my house cause I’m safe here. And honestly I don’t need to see or speak to random people.

If you knew me, you’d know me as a extremely outgoing & independent woman who always makes sure she looks good but these days I’m nothing like that at all. I don’t even recognise myself anymore. Iv put on weight & iv stopped looking after myself. It’s horrible & I can’t seem to change it.

If I’m invited to something like a party or out for coffee with a friend, I find an excuse not to go as the thought of going out isn’t a good one. It’s easier to decline & stay home in the comfort of my own surroundings.

Some of my friends know what’s going on but to be perfectly honest I don’t think they’ll even fully understand just how bad things are. Some are supportive & others have slipped away quietly without saying a word. Personally I don’t blame them but it is heartbreaking that they aren’t there for me like I have been for them
Oh well that’s life. Can’t change how others act.

I’d like nothing more than to get up in the morning, have a shower, get dressed & go out to do the things I need to do. Unfortunately that is a huge struggle.

Now I am waiting for my health insurance to kick on so I can go into a inpatient treatment program in a local hospital. I have another month before I can start so I just have to try to make through the next few weeks. Hopefully with the love & support of my husband & Mum then I’ll make it through.

Have you experienced something like this? What did you do? Did you find some treatment that helped you?


Can you relate to these? I sure can!


Don’t bother


New Years Resolution We Should Stick Too

▪️ Be kind to yourself.

▪️ Stop being so hard on yourself.

▪️ Get rid of all the one sided friendships. Friendships are meant to be 50/50. You don’t need people like that in your life.

▪️ Do something nice for you & only you once a week.

▪️ Listen to yourself. If you don’t want to do something then don’t do it. Your gut instinct is usually 100% right

▪️ Get enough sleep & rest.

▪️ Get the help you need. Find a therapist or doctor so you can start getting the help you desperately need.

▪️ Don’t worry about what other people think. They wouldn’t last an hour with what we go through.

▪️ If you’re run down then take some time out & let yourself recover. Don’t burn the candle at both ends.

▪️ Last but certainly not least
Look after number one, YOU!

Happy New Year. I hope 2015 brings you peace, joy & closure.


Happy New Year To You All We Got Through Another Year!


May 2015 bring you closure & happiness.