Iv been struggling so badly lately & last night I did something I shouldn’t of done.
After having a few to many drinks I was so desperate to end it all. I took too many sleeping tablets & painkillers. After doing this I realised what a stupid thing Id done & told my fiancé. He called 000 & I was rushed to hospital. I was looked after & released this morning.
The doctors & nurses keep asking why? The only answer I had for them is that there isn’t enough help available for suffers of CTPSD. I have been searching all over the place to get the help I so desperately need but I can’t find anything.
It’s making everyday life even harder to know that there isn’t any help for someone like me. I didn’t ask for this, I didn’t do this to myself. Someone else did unspeakable things to me when I was a child & it’s still effecting me so badly. I can’t take the contact triggers & memories anymore.
This illness is a very serious one & there needs to be more research done to help all of us.
Please if you are feeling like me don’t do the same thing. Pick up the phone & call someone to get the help you need. I made a huge mistake & I should of done the same.
I hope now that Iv realised I can’t take it anymore I will be able to get the help I need to get through this difficult time.
I keep saying to my readers to look after yourself & I need to take my own advice. I need to take better care of me for a change